Wednesday 8/28

 There was a time where my Dad told me that I needed to put more effort in the dance group im in, but I really got tired of dancing and it was really draining and I just wanted to leave and do something I truly loved. My dad took it very personal and guilt tripped me asking me how would I teach my children about the Mexican culture and that I need to pass it down to my kids and other stuff. But I wanted to do soccer and not take up all of my free time dancing. I told him I wanted to leave but he didn't care about what I said and told me I was going to keep doing it no matter what. I ended up making a deal with him that I would keep showing up to the dance practices if he gave me the permission to take some days off to go play soccer. He somewhat agreed with it but still made me show up to the dance practices. I kept showing no effort so he could let me go and let me do what I wanted, but that didn't seem to work so I was just stuck in dance. I think I just forgot about it and just said its what ever. I think since then my relationship with my parents wasn't great because they had me doing something I didn't want to keep doing and I had no other option.